…surrendering isn’t supposed to be hard, right? or maybe it depends on the battle. or the personality of the fighter.
my bet is on both.
I chose to surrender a battle that has been beating me since I retired and started knitting “professionally” (please excuse the quotation marks – my husband thinks it’s a hobby, but it pays for my yarn, so I think it’s more than that). key point here is that knitting is now the only thing I really do. yes, I still meet friends for coffee, I keep house, I walk my dog, I teach, I read, I study, … but really… most of that takes a back seat to the knitting. it’s certainly the only thing I do – besides blogging and photography – that creates something that lasts outside of me. so I take it seriously. and that’s my personality.
I like to take things seriously. I like to set stretch goals and meet them (I taught a seminar once in my former life that “exceeding” stretch goals meant you hadn’t set the goals right … simply meeting a stretch goal is a victory).
so there we have the perfect storm to setup this battle.
and in my first month, I’ve been defeated.
but I’ve learned.
I almost hate to revisit the campaign, but maybe I’ll learn more from it if I do!
remember september 2? a few days before a 3-day weekend (when I wasn’t working or teaching), a week before my planned beach trip, and a month off from teaching two of my classes. knitting time seemed abundant. I was excited about the projects. I could do anything!
funny, when I posted on september 16 about my surrender, I didn’t actually surrender any of those earlier deadlines. in my head I was still planning to finish a shawl and two sweaters and maybe let the vest slide to october. really?!
yes really?! what was I thinking! I was setting myself up to fail. and I don’t like that. that’s why I’m surrendering the battle. I said it. and I wrote it. but I didn’t do it.
I worked like crazy to finish the crocus shawl so I could share it with my students (that worked, they’re excited about the pattern and two of them have started it).
and now I have birthday and holiday knitting to start. I refuse to let those projects become part of my battle this year. over the last few days, I’ve been re-working the “deadlines” in my head. trying to be realistic about how much knitting time I really have and how much knitting I get done.
my new rule of thumb is about 75 yds of yarn a day. more if it’s straight stockinette or heavier yarn. and less is if it’s not. that means I can knit about 2,250 yards a month.
so for october, I’m going to:
I think these goals are realistic, and depending on the gifts, maybe even a stretch. not that I’m looking for stretch this month. I’m just hoping to get back to a saner place.
do you set time goals for your knitting? if so, does it work?